Stimuli

Unsafe, unsafe

I hear you, feel you

have worn that  scar

on my skin

Unsafe, unsafe

Because you gave it to me.

I had no reason not to trust you.

Not to trust the love I felt would

be returned.

Unsafe, unsafe

No reason to believe that wanting

to be in your life (wholly)

and not some undercover operation

was a problem

unsolvable

distant and close

a heartbeat

an echo

Unsafe, unsafe

I thought the arms

that carried me

wouldn’t let go.

Unsafe, unsafe

You push

I pull

We argue the same point

over and over and over and over and over and over

while Sisyphus laughs in

Schadenfreude.

Unsafe, unsafe

I lay myself bare in

supplication

Not because you have power

Because you have

fear

anxiety

insecurity

have always had

Unsafe, unsafe

I raise my voice

to be louder

than

fear

anxiety

insecurity

my heart

murmuring

to yours