My Smile

I wish I had known about the connection between teeth and meth when I started medication for ADHD, but even then, I was maybe 19. If there were side effects to a drug that made me lose weight, I didn’t want to know them. Adderrall did indeed help me lose weight, but it did it too quickly and violently for my tastes (here’s a free warning in case “you think you have ADHD now”). I had an upset stomach from the medication and when I looked at food, I felt sicker. Craving a donut is hard. Not craving a donut is harder. What do you do when even the most appealing foods on earth are in the “I don’t think so” category? Eating and not eating cause two different sets of problems for your teeth as well. So, if I could change anything, it would be only that. I feel like the mental “list of what’s wrong with me and why” is finally showing me how I can do things right, because I sat in all of it long enough to know what serves me and what doesn’t. I cannot change the way my mind works biologically, but I can learn the ways in which I am unique to you so that I can communicate.

This one’s going to be short, as it’s an important date on my calendar to eat pizza (bacon, sausage, light mushrooms) and ice cream (strawberry banana shortcake). Writing can come tomorrow, when it’s just not so today.