If You Are New Here

If you are new here, you are reading at a very good time. I have recently let go of my old life and am starting to build a new one. Some elements of my life will remain the same. I am not planning on leaving Baltimore. It’s just that the life I’ve led for the past 12 years has been mostly tethered to my keyboard even when I’m not writing for this web site. That has to change, because I know you all like pictures, too. I could take some if I wasn’t so busy chatting.

Internet chat is one of those things that sustains me. It is easier for me to respond in the comfort of my chair, but this new life I’m building requires more of me than that. I need to meet people in their elements, out and about. I’ve gotten to know a little bit more about my neighborhood since I’ve gotten a car, because I’ve been able to branch out more than the two or three tenths of a mile I was willing to walk.

If you are new here, you probably don’t know that this is the first time I’ve driven in about 10 years, and it’s a miracle. I didn’t have all the technology available to me now on my last car, and driving feels different…. But no less amazing. I thought I would miss my stick shift, but as it turns out a six speed automatic is just as good. I am much happier in stop and go traffic.

I’ve been diligent about cleaning my car inside and out. Every time I park, I gather all my trash and throw it away before I come inside. This is a new ritual for me, because usually I cannot be bothered. It’s my way of turning over a new leaf- not having to have that conversation with people getting in…. “Just give me a second to move all my crap over…” I think it’s funny that I’m so dedicated to people seeing my clean car and there’s no chance anyone will be riding with me anytime soon… But there’s always a chance.

If you are new here, then you probably do not know the cast of characters. I am Leslie, and I’m here every day. My friends rotate in and out as we chat and visit in person. My friend Riker is a writer and uses this blog as his own, so we’ll be doing a web site redesign in the near future, which scares me… But is also a great project as Lanagan Media Group becomes a reality.

This blog is not my only project, but it’s the most consistent. I’m also working on a cookbook with my buddy Evan, and we’ll see what also comes down the pike as LMG thinks about new ventures, like a podcast.

I’ve also thought about getting out and doing some filming in Baltimore, a vlog from me as I’m walking down the street vs. reading. My friend Bryn has told me many times that she likes listening to me like a podcast, so a vlog would bring her that….. And I’m sure she’s bummed that I haven’t posted on Medium in a while because the AI voice doesn’t read the entries to her on WordPress.

I’ll get back to Medium. I just haven’t thought of any scholarly articles that I want to write, and that’s where it seems the most geared. Here on WordPress, I have access to so many more elements to make this web site appealing.

I wish that I could combine the two web sites’ abilities, but no one asked me.

So, if you are new here, look forward to the fact that you might be getting Medium links in the future, as you have in the past. The main reason this is still my main web site even though Medium pays its writers is that my ad revenues are starting to pick up here and I’m more comfortable with WordPress altogether.

If you are new here, then you should know that I used to be kind of a big deal in the early aughts, but I didn’t monetize early enough to become an influencer, and honestly, I’m not sure where my talent ranks among other writers. I’ve been compared to David Sedaris the most frequently, but I cannot figure out why. I am sure that it is because I can use my Southern drawl to great effect, even online.

I, like Dooce, will ALSO SPARE YOU THE DETAILS OF EARL’S ANGINA.

God, I miss that woman. I wish I’d had a chance to meet her in person.

I did get to meet Wil Wheaton back in the day, and I’ve had a few famous names read me over the years, but mostly I’ve kept my head down. I made a friend over the internet and we disappeared into a bubble. Now, that bubble has burst, and I am ready for prime time.

But what the secretive bubble did for me was give me a sandbox as a writer. I am more fluid and flexible in writing than I am verbally. I think that this is a feature of my neurodivergence, as I have both ADHD and Autism. Spending 12 years almost solely reading and writing for entertainment upped my game in a way that I would not have gotten otherwise.

Now, it’s time to blend that world into the real, learning to live and react simultaneously.

I have felt for a long time that this blog has been a book report on my friend Aada’s letters to me, an easier thing to write than taking in a whole environment at once. But I need to realize that this blog thrives on my descriptions of more than how I’m feeling in reaction to people’s email. I do not know why I gave so much power to Aada, but yet, I do.

I still do, and am pulling myself out of it. Believe me when I say that I am coming down from thinking she puts the sun in the sky every morning before she goes to work. I need to put her in the proper perspective, and since we’ve agreed to at the very least have time apart, if not drift altogether, it’s time.

There’s just nothing I want to immortalize more than our relationship, so the search is on to find something that excites me just as much. My brain works best with distraction/redirection, and this situation is no different. To me, rising above being in this secretive bubble filled with energy would be writing about my reactions to the world’s news. I haven’t much before because I don’t have any degrees. Who cares about my opinion?

It’s a huge reason I talk about my life and not politics. I am an expert in my reactions to things because I was present when they happened. I am not an expert in anything other than that. So, because I am not a world traveler and it is not my job to absorb the news, I’m not sure I feel qualified to do more than let you into my little corner of the world.

Welcome.

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