I Love College

I started college at Wharton County Junior College, specifically the Sugar Land campus — a place that felt like the academic equivalent of a starter home. It was the perfect entrance to higher education, and I mean that with the kind of sarcasm that comes from flunking out your first semester.

In my defense, I was trying to wait tables, grieve a first love, and pretend I wasn’t falling apart. That combination is not known for producing strong GPAs.

But WCJC is built for comebacks, and so was I. The very next semester, I pulled straight As like I was trying to prove something to the universe.

A lot of that turnaround came from two professors who accidentally rewired my brain.
Dr. Schultz‑Zwahr lit my fire for psychology — suddenly human behavior made sense, including my own.
Dr. Sutter lit my fire for political science — suddenly the world made sense, including why everything was on fire.

WCJC was my reset button. My “you’re not broken, you’re just overwhelmed” chapter.

From there, I transferred to the University of Houston, where I lived first in South Tower and then in Settegast Hall. Both were loud, chaotic, and full of the kind of energy that only happens when thousands of 18‑to‑20‑year‑olds are stacked vertically and fed unlimited carbohydrates.

But the real education wasn’t in the dorms. It was in Third Ward.

For a nerdy white girl, living in that neighborhood was a cultural baptism. I inhaled Black culture — not as a tourist, but as a neighbor. I learned the rhythm, the humor, the food, the history, the pride, the grief, the brilliance. I learned how to listen. I learned how to shut up. I learned how to belong without pretending to be anything other than exactly who I was.

I fell in love with Frenchie’s — fried chicken that could fix your whole life.
I fell in love with Timmy Chan’s — wings and rice that could fix whatever Frenchie’s didn’t.
I have tasted Drank. I have survived Drank. I am, in a very real way, the 713.

And because I apparently wasn’t busy enough, I also worked for the Graduate School of Social Work, managing its computer lab. This meant I spent my days helping stressed-out grad students fight with Microsoft Word like it owed them money.

That’s where I met a graduate student nobody ever heard of named Brené Brown.

Back then, she was just Brené — another student trying to figure out why her document kept auto‑formatting itself into chaos. I taught her a few tricks in Word. Nothing dramatic. Just the usual “here’s how to make your margins behave” kind of thing.

Years later, when she became Brené Brown, I thought, “Well, I guess I contributed to the vulnerability revolution by teaching her how to indent.”

It’s a tiny footnote in her story, but a delightful headline in mine.

WCJC taught me how to start again.
UH taught me how to expand.
One gave me grounding.
The other gave me identity.

Together, they shaped the version of me who can flunk out, get back up, move to Third Ward, eat Frenchie’s at midnight, teach Brené Brown how to use Word, and walk into adulthood with a little more grit, a little more humor, and a whole lot more story.


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I Love College

What colleges have you attended?

Don't even bounce...
Not in my house.
Better hope you make it...
Otherwise you naked.
I am champion at beer pong....
Allen Iverson, Hakeem Olajuwon....

While this is my favorite verse of “I Love College” by Asher Roth (Houston represent), I cannot say that I’ve ever been to a wild party like that. I may have gone to some things that came close to frat-level foolishness, but we learned a lot while we were building communities.

The thing is, though, I became an adult before my time. I got married too young and didn’t handle it well. I shouldn’t have left University of Houston, and it’s been so long now that I just have to hope that now they don’t matter. Of course they do, but I’m a jack of all trades and most people who work with computers have a mixed bag of certifications, and a Bachelor’s may or may not be one of them. This is changing, perhaps, but I don’t think so. What I knew 10 years ago, people also knew 40 years ago. The information changes too fast for it to be published in books.

If you’re going to study computers in school, you need something like a language that doesn’t change. Object-oriented programming has the same concepts no matter the syntax. However, if you are the person in charge of taking care of every device in the department, you will not learn a single thing in school that you wouldn’t pick up in a week on the job. That’s because you’re dealing with problems with:

  • Apple MacOS
  • Windows
  • Ubuntu
  • Red Hat (sorry, Fedora….. old habits die hard…)
  • Android for phones
  • Android for tablets
  • Android for Galaxy Wear
  • Apple iOS for iPhone
  • Apple iOS for iPad
  • Apple iOS for Apple Watch

And if you’re a system administrator, you probably have to deal with even more operating systems than that. Maybe not now, but in 1999 I also had an account on our VMS/VAX machine, and flirted with Solaris (it doesn’t look much different from Red Hat or Debian back then).

Now, how likely are you to read about those things in a textbook when you need the information RIGHT THE FUCK NOW because Professor So and So is going to blow a gasket if she can’t receive e-mail on her phone for 30 seconds. Meanwhile, I’m Irish. I’ll deal with something being wrong the rest of my life. Probably why I have so many devices. I don’t put up with their crap. I have an extra to use when I have to blow away the whole thing and start over because such and such app has hosed such and such setting.

Knowing how to do all that is something I learned in college, but because I worked full time for the IT department while I was a student. It was a tremendous load for a person with AuDHD, and I did not last long in that position. When I got to DC in 2001, I collapsed for a few weeks while Kathleen got settled at the office and I took care of all the house stuff. Then, later, when I was supposed to start at George Mason, she told me that she couldn’t pay my tuition anymore. I understood, but it didn’t make me happy because I’d already paid her rent for a couple of years at that point…… because she was a student, and I had a job.

I never should have ended up with her to begin with, and the red flags that I should have seen were because I was her boss for three months. She was just a summer hire, so my boss didn’t worry that we were together. She wasn’t there all the time, I was.

Now, I’ve worked for my stepmother for an extended period of time, and then I wanted to be a line cook and my wife was the perfect teacher. Both of those experiences have told me that Kathleen’s behavior while I was her boss was just egregious and I should have fired her on the spot, because in that moment (not all the time, just when push came to shove IN MY OFFICE) I was the boss. Objectively. What I had that Kathleen did not was a willingness to recognize that she was not at the top of the food chain because she acted like she had my authority…. to me.

When most of my life, I’ve been calling my stepmother “Doctor” and my ex-wife “Chef.”

I didn’t have Kathleen fired, I was relieved when I found out we were moving and that would be the end of the line for me trying to manage the unmanageable. I know how to be on and off the clock. Most adults do……..

All of this being said, I did go to between four and six years of classes, because I went part time at one point. I really only have a few classes to finish up my junior year, and then I’m onto the last stretch. The problem with that is that I’ve already taken everything I liked.

I got an F in Intro to Poetry because I had a full-time job during summer school. So, I wrote two outstanding papers and had an A+ in the class, but my professor failed me anyway because I didn’t show up three times. I was at work- what could I say? If I had known you couldn’t miss three days in a semester if you had perfect grades, I wouldn’t have done it. It just never occurred to me that it was something that could happen, but I don’t do well with injustice and I think this is it. I know I’m not a poet, but I at least understand it well enough to write about it, even if I don’t use the form myself.

I’m starting to learn what I’m going to do in this one wild and precious life, and word is beginning to spread. I’ve been invited to be a guest on “The Dark Room Podcast,” and here’s the thing that really made me sit up a little straighter…… they don’t really know me. They know my work. Apparently, I am interesting enough to be a podcast guest now…. or maybe I always have been, I just didn’t realize it.

Maybe I should have gone to Georgetown.