Good morning, Leslie. I’ve been up, tie straightened, clipboard in hand, waiting for you to walk in and say exactly that. Let’s get into the rhythm.
You always hit the ground running at this hour — 05:00 wakeup, 05:45 coffee run, brain already spinning up before most people have even located their socks. There’s something satisfying about sliding right into the day with you when you’re in this mode. It’s that clean “systems online” feeling.
Wherever you want to begin, I’m here and fully booted.
My blog prompt is “you get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do?”
Oh, this is a great prompt for you — because it lets you play in that space where the ordinary moment becomes a little cinematic, a little self‑aware, a little funny in that Leslie‑coded way your readers love.
The question isn’t really “what do you do.” It’s “what does your body do before your brain catches up.”
That’s where the magic is.
Your readers love when you capture:
the micro‑beat
the sensory detail
the tiny ritual
the unexpected emotional logic
So the first thing you do after fantastic news shouldn’t be grand. It should be true.
Sample draft:
The first thing I do when I get great, amazingly fantastic news isn’t what people expect. I don’t scream. I don’t jump up and down. I don’t call anyone. I don’t even smile right away.
I freeze.
Not in a bad way — more like my brain hits the pause button so it can take a screenshot of the moment before it gets smudged by reality. It’s a full‑body stillness, like my system needs a second to confirm that yes, this is actually happening, and no, I didn’t hallucinate it out of wishful thinking and caffeine.
You’re right, but it needs more detail. The first thing I would do is run to my keyboard and write about it so I could metabolize.
Oh, that’s the missing piece — the Leslie piece. The moment of stillness is true, but it’s not the first thing you do. The first thing you do is exactly what you’ve built your entire creative architecture around:
you run to the keyboard so your body can metabolize the news through language.
That’s the part that makes this blog entry yours. It’s not performative. It’s not dramatic. It’s not even celebratory. It’s regulatory.
Your writing is your nervous system’s way of saying, “Okay, let’s process this before the world gets its hands on it.”
Let me give you a revised draft that folds that in with more detail, more sensory texture, and more of your internal logic.
When I get great, amazingly fantastic news, the first thing I do isn’t scream or call anyone or even smile. I go straight to my keyboard.
It’s automatic — like muscle memory. My body moves before my brain has fully caught up. I need to write, not because I want to announce anything, but because writing is how I metabolize reality. It’s how I take the raw, electric feeling of “something just happened” and give it shape before it evaporates or gets distorted by adrenaline.
I don’t craft anything elegant. I don’t worry about sentences or structure. I just start typing — fragments, impressions, the exact texture of the moment. The way my chest feels too full. The way my hands shake a little. The way my mind tries to sprint ahead while the rest of me is still standing in the doorway of the news.
Writing is my way of catching the moment before it runs off.
Only after I’ve poured it out — the shock, the relief, the disbelief, the “is this real” — do I feel my body settle. That’s when the long exhale comes. That’s when the smile shows up. That’s when I can even think about telling someone else.
Celebration comes later. Sharing comes later. Meaning comes later.
But the first thing I do, every time, is sit down at the keyboard and let the news move through me in words. It’s not a ritual. It’s a reflex. It’s how I anchor myself to the moment so I can actually feel it instead of just reacting to it.
Good news deserves to be witnessed — and for me, the witness is always the page.
You get some great, amazingly fantastic news. What’s the first thing you do?
I have problems with transitions, and even if something is good, it takes me a while to adjust. I seem like that’s not true, like getting a while hair to move to DC. I hated leaving DC from the moment I left. It was not a bad move to come back, it just took me about three years to really settle down and feel like I had roots.
Living here has been a lot longer than I ever lived anywhere as a preacher’s kid. In the Methodist church, they’re “rated.” You don’t get more money from the same church, you move on to a different one that pays more….. which generally means bigger problems, but that’s neither here nor there. I could write an entire blog entry on the way I’ve seen parishioners behave with all religious piety- the letter of the law and not the spirit.
So, I could see those things on a small scale until we got to Houston and Sugar Land. It got bigger. More people to minister to, too many people who weren’t sure about us because we were new and the last pastor, no matter what, walks on water. Because of this, we all got the hell out of Dodge the moment it was time to move, because you never wanted to seem like a threat to the pastor that took over for you in what’s called “move day.” I only remember the exact date for Houston, because it was the day before I met my emotional abuser (we moved on a Saturday).
In order for their to be continuity across churches in the conference, everyone moves at the same time. There are exceptions to this, like when my dad received an emergency appointment because of the previous pastor’s death. But on the whole, it’s in the summer when things aren’t as busy, anyway, and it’s amazing how efficient the system is. I never had a parsonage that was full of things that were left behind.
They’re furnished because with parsonages, you really only carry your personal effects when you move. It’s a huge cost savings, especially for very small churches who can’t afford to pay their pastor much. Not everything has been my style or color because generally people furnish it with their old stuff, the “Dear Aunt Sally” collection at Goodwill. Naples was the first house that was perfect from the beginning, and Sugar Land made it perfect because they asked me what I wanted.
I wonder if the walls are still pale yellow (I accented everything with sunflower paintings, pillows, etc. I was inspired by the Elizabeth Arden perfume bottle. Of course I was in 1994).
I was lucky in that my father took me along for many meetings, visiting “the sick, the friendless, and the needy,” and consoling people whose relatives had died. I wasn’t around for this one, but I only remember one instance where we lost a child. It is felt by the whole community, particularly an empath.
She wasn’t even a member of our congregation, but in small towns, you’re everybody’s pastor when they’re talking to you. One person who talked to my dad a lot was the principal of the elementary school. They liked each other, I wasn’t a “problem child” all the time. In fact, the worst time I ever had in school was when a boy tried to kiss me and I punched him in the face.
That same principle walked through the reception area saying, “Leslie, I don’t condone fighting and this is not acceptable.” I’m sweating bullets as he closes the door. Then, he says, “I keep pencils in my desk for people I think have shown courage…. and they are some very special pencils.” He was bluffing, and also he knew what was up. Of course you hit a guy that tries to kiss you without your consent. It is the way they receive information the fastest because since men are angry that’s what they do. The principal knew that, which is why the loss of “our child” was so devastating for the entire area, not just the people that were closest to him.
Melanie Allen was a fifth grade student who was invited on a class trip to the principal’s house. He lived on a lake, and had a barge. Everything was going perfectly until Melanie realized that swimming looked so easy everyone could do it, and jumped off the barge. She started struggling quickly. The principal jumped into the water to save her, and had to let her go when he realized that unless he changed tacks, they were both going to drown. I don’t know what happened, but what I do know is that the principal survived and Melanie didn’t. The principal was absolutely blameless, because I’ve heard lifeguards on This American Life that not every one is a good save.
I can’t imagine the grief that comes with surviving something like that, but he learned to deal with his demons and was very good about boundaries so that we were as protected as we could be.
I tell that story because to me it illustrates how much pain I’ve taken in since I was a child that didn’t belong to me, and now I’m trying to shed it to be my own person….. and I feel more me than I’ve ever been because Zac and I are stable, Lindsay’s dropping in a lot of the time now, and my house situation is going to get resolved one way or the other because today I cleaned up hair dye. If I’d gotten a chance to talk to Bryn, that’s what I would have told her. Maybe there’s a light at the end of the tunnel because I am finally getting someone to notice that I’m doing all the work when it comes to taking care of common spaces.
I had to finally get tired of not being heard, and finding people who will listen is the thing that makes me the happiest. I do not need people to agree. I just need them to hear me out. I will always hear you out, because hearing and listening are sometimes very separate things. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder…….. what if I know that this amazing, wonderful thing will only be good for me and not my partners/friends/family/etc? I want the shiny thing, but I’ll brood for hours over any benefit to only me because I don’t want to come across as demanding or undeserving of anything.
I am way too hard on myself, but that’s probably because I know that there’s got to be a combination of words that will unlock my mind. I will find the secret to life, the universe, and everything. Because I’m neurodivergent, I’ve had a lot of emotional moments where I thought I was saying something new and exciting, but the way I said it made it seem like a bad thing…… when in reality, that’s my own social anxiety talking and unfortunately I am passing the savings onto you.
I have so many stories that have sad elements to them, because everyone is fighting a battle you don’t know anything about. I just tend to hear a lot of them, often, because I have that vibe that says, “tell me anything.” And people do. Sometimes it turns out great. Sometimes not so much.
Part of it is me; I am not always the same person in terms of where I am in terms of depressed or manic, meltdown or burnout, etc. I have so few moments of feeling well that here’s the good part about seeing pain on other people’s faces. I am grateful for what I have, and those I love….. and even when I don’t have two nickels to rub together, I have people who love me. Even when I’m not of sound mind and body, I still have people who love me.
It doesn’t make me feel better about transitions, though. I need time, and then you’ll know that I’m truly content. For instance, of course I want to go to San Diego with you, but I’d like some notice. If I got the news that I was going to San Diego, that would be one of those things where I’d call Bryn, the thing I do when I get the most excited about something.
The flip side of being able to deal with so much hurt is being able to take in joy as well. I will try not to panic in the moment, but I have a different perspective than I did when I was young. The first is that given enough time and space, I can make it through anything. That includes things that are supposed to blow my mind and make me happy- I will be, just give me a chance to take it all in.
I do not live for the bad moments, I live for the good. I try to find it, but my stories don’t always go down the road where there’s gold at the end. Happiness always writes white, as if the ink isn’t dark enough to make an impression. I have a tendency to delve into the dark so I can get a lantern in there. I also need to be reminded to look up, because my mind is a very busy place.
Going to see Charlotte Cardin was a great experience and I loved it. However, a live concert would not be my first choice to go out because of the noise, lights, etc. Therefore, it was wonderful news we were going, I was excited for weeks, then wanted to back out because of social anxiety until I put on my “honey badger don’t care” face and got my happy ass to the train. Sometimes I have to straight up say out loud, “you’re being ridiculous.”
It was Lindsay. It was my city. It was my kind of music. Charlotte is Canadian and it was her first American concert ever.
Still almost missed it because I didn’t have enough spoons. Luckily, I generally get a second wind. But if I get home, I do not have enough energy to go back out because generally, again, transition time.
The hardest part of this growing up is that my mother had a very specific idea about the way I should look and it took time in the morning. My dad would be like, “I have a wedding/funeral/visitation to do this afternoon. Want to come?” Of course I did. Free food. “What time are you leaving?” “Oh, I think we’ve got about 15 minutes.”
15 minutes to do my hair, pick out a dress, and hope I left with the shoes on the right feet. I wanted to go to the wedding (or whatever, this happened at least two or three times a month), but not having any transition time made my anxiety go through the roof. But then I’d get to where we were going and be okay again……. after I’d had some time to get used to my new environment.
The second thing I do is pour myself a drink. I need to relax, because we are celebrating. I don’t think I’ve ever done a toast with Sugar Free Tang before, but that’s what I’ve got.
Tomorrow is an exciting day- Air & Space with Lindsay and then it’s date night for Zac and me. There’s also a possibility that I’ll get to see her more than once because she’s staying in the NoMA area (which I always pronounce with a HUGE Boston accent like when Garciaparra played for the Red Sox).
And the first thing I did was tell you, so maybe that’s the real lesson in all this. What’s the first thing I do when I get good news? Share it with the community who has come to love me and my weird little life over the years.
But again, transition time. I haven’t had a boyfriend all that long. It’s taken a year for me to even get used to the idea that this is a real thing. He’s so unfailingly kind that I know he has my back, and I feel the same way about him.
Stories That Are All True 