Facebook Posting I Just Wrote:
I promise that in front of the kids I will be entirely age appropriate, but FUCK YEAH I got the interview at the church. I am so high I can barely stand it. I came to DC to do the work I’ve been saying I was going to do and I’ve taken a step down on HOLY GROUND. Thanks to Nadia Bolz Weber and Jay Bakker, I learned that I could be myself and still be a minister. I have tattoos. I have piercings. I am a little edgy for prime time on my web site and on Facebook. I am also a humble servant and I know my church needs me. Will you pray with me? My interview is on Thursday, August 13th at 8:15 PM. I know I’ve got the skills. Help me build the confidence I need to know that God is talking directly to me. I have run from this calling since 1995. It’s GO TIME. I cannot believe this is even happening. I am so excited to be the person I need to be.
It’s time I got a clue. I was born for this. I am an INFJ who’s been trained her whole life in “show mode.” I am the introvert writer who can hold you in the palm of her hand during worship. I can preach. I can write liturgy. I can sit through a finance meeting and not get bored. 😉 I know how to make the ask in terms of donations. I know every part of this job, down to the nuts and bolts. God has been calling me forever. I finally picked up the fucking phone.
I can’t help but think of Susan and my dad right now, because they are the ones that prepared me for this. Susan even more than my dad, really, because everything I learned from my dad, I learned by watching. Everything I learned from Susan was, “here it is. Do it.” It took a lot for me to have the confidence to fly solo, and even though I will be an unordained youth pastor if I get the job, it does not mean that I will not get to exhibit my other skills as well. Plus, it pays enough that all my expenses are covered and school won’t get in the way, and neither will writing.
Please, Fanagans. I’ve never needed you more in my life. Pray for me and the ministry I’m starting, because this is go big or go home time. I need to impress the search committee. I need this job as a stepping stone to having my own church someday. I need your prayers and your PRESENCE. I need to feel your love and your confidence in me.
In the words of my favorite hymn, won’t you let me be your servant, let me be as Christ to you? Pray that I may have the grace to let you be my servant, too.