I have had hallucinations that would be interesting if they were filmed, but I’d want a good writer’s room. Mental health has to be treated with care and while I’m the subject, I need help with context. I wasn’t all there. Tiina can help with some of that, speaking as if this were a real project (it’s not). It’s really hard to see yourself in that place once the hallucination is past, because the context that made it feel real is gone. There’s only one writer I really want on my team that I cannot have because he’s busy, and that’s Zelenskyy.
He could make me feel comfortable about putting words and pictures to the distorted images in my head. I loved how he illustrated his own. “Servant of the People” is a masterpiece, and very much fits my vibe- serious, and absurdist.
Another movie is my childhood, because it is so different than how I live now. Northeast Texas in the 1970s-80s was a whole mood…. and that mood included white gloves and party manners.
Another movie would be my adulthood, because after my family left the church the structure was different and I wasn’t wearing a constant halo. It is not real. It is what other people project onto you as “The Preacher’s Child.”
Don’t worry, I was just as much of an asshole as your child.
And then there’s a movie about my life now. Tiina and I creating new projects. Brian and I working in the yard. Special time to myself with the kids so Brian and Tiina can have bandwidth. The excitement of feeling like my life is changing with Tiina’s new grandbaby….. because it’s not fantasy. My life is changing. That baby is coming and is going to be living in Tiina’s house and has MOOMIN GEAR OMG THIS IS NOT A DRILL.
This might be the best movie of all.
Stories That Are All True 